Pepsi is the DEVIL!

....and I dont say that lightly and yes for all of you wondering I do in fact mean that carbonated caramel coloured crap in the blue can with the wannabe deranges ying yang on it .... except its PURE EVIL unlike the ying yang. I come to this conclusion for this very reason: 2 weeks WITHOUT a severe panic attack .... and 2 weeks without pepsi as well. Lastnight and today i indulge in the devils blood and I have a severe panic attack!!Do you see the link my fellow hypos...my body cannot handle the pepsi...my brain cannot handle the pepsi...I think perhaps my GP had a point and caffeine really does crucify us anxious beings. Because I was relaively alright without it and than SERIOUSLY messed with it. God Damned multi billion dollar companies ruining the lives of us anxious hypos by bribing us into there sweet tasty creations. Damnnn and they blame it all on cigarettes ... well cigarettes have never caused me to do something as ridiculous as have an absolute cow over nothing. SCREW you Devil Cola Company!
I did read your blog John and now I do see the very good reasons I havent heard from ya...but I left a comment regarding that for ya. But honestly there are ways to get through this...and you can do it ... and believe me Im not just one of those people babbling Im one of those people in the exact same boat except married with two young children so I know the feeling dear friend. Like I stated though, I WOULD be more than happy to chat with her if she was willing ... and to tell her how things work for me and my hubby and tell her some personal scenarios and pretty much anything she'd be interested in finding out from a ROYAL hypochondriac in a long term commited relationship. So give that some thought and get back to me if you will. DOnt feel bad about going to emerg either because Ive been there my fair share of times for quote on quote 'absolutely nothing'. Its just a part of the hypo condition with the need for reassurance. Plus hypos do get REAL physical sensations and pains its just that they're not linked to anything medically seen..and its a proven that we DONT fake it. So I hope that makes ya feel a little better...not to say we're perfect and should be considered innocent because ya we are over reacting but the fact remains that the illness does ACTUALLY have terrible physical sensations that we bring on yes your g/f will like this lol we do bring them on ourselves alot of the time.
But hey everyone hits a rocky path in their lives in some way or another and this just happens to be 'our way'. Learning to live with it is how you learn to get THROUGH it I find....sooner or later the episodes become less intense. Scary still but not the same kind of scary...freaking but you finally KNOW you dont need to go to emerg for it and you can handle your fit at home sort of thing. You just sort of learn what to expect. Lol, but Im going to shut up about atleast this for now as I feel like Im Dr.Phil or something baha.


Well anyways this blog was about pepsi being the devil but Ive already been through that so now what else is there to ramble about???Hmmmm.....
Im going to go out for a walk soon with my friend Alicia hopefully to get some air and calm down a little more because the biggest part of the severe anxiety attack today was the feeling that my chest was tight and that fluttering butterfly sensation that makes it like you think your not gunna get another breath...a fear sensation so to speak....and well it felt like I couldnt get enough air into my lungs because my chest wouldnt expand and yada...creepy shit. So Im almost over that now with mild chest pain and a mild headache/arm pain...not nice so Im sure you already know. Well thats all for now and I really hope to see ya online later John so we can speak about this further if ya'd like and maybe theres something I can contribute to help and if there is Id love to help.

Talk soon and best regards(PEACE OUT ALL MY HYPO HOMIES)
Sam.