Well Im wondering once again where in the hell John is....lmao, hes the master of scaring the hell outta me!Where are ya man?Hows the situation turning out...let me know. Its strange when your not on my blog let alone typing your own...you freak me out when ya dissapear lmao. Well Im just adding a blog that way ya know the hypo queen still prevails lol. I went tanning for the 3rd day in a row today at the salon and like the other two days the 5 minute timer got down to one minute left and I started panicking my ass off and had to shut it down..lol, the heart started thumping, I became dizzy and lightheaded and I got this uncomfortable sensation in my chest, surely not only was I being blinded by the UV lights(even though i had goggles that screen it 100%) but I was on the verge of death...lol. So it was the same ritual, put my lotion on at home,walkover there and scan in, put my goggles on and lay down,turn on the tanning bed,start to race with irrational thoughts ....really ger panicked,look at the timer which reads 1 minute left,cant take anymore,stop it,stand up and freak,take lorazepam,gobble down half a bottle of water,get dressed and leave feeling like a million bucks. My husband wonders why I torcher myself if it works me up so much to tan there but I say I like it...and I do minus the panic....but tanning combined with my bottle of drugs and Im peachy. LOL I probably sound like Im turning into an addict now!But...Im not!
Now Im just listening to tunes and blogging for all of you hypo queen fans. The singer Lady GaGA and that song 'poker face'....for some reason I find these lyrics extremely exciting lol *Russian Roulette aint the same without a gun and when it comes to love if it isnt rough it isnt fun*....im not quite sure why those fascinate me so....but they really do.Baha,comment away if you think you know what a hypo like me could possibly love about those few lyrics. Well thats all for now, Im going to go for now....and John make the essence of your LIVING known to me before I sign myself in to the ward on Delhi St...not that I couldnt convince them to take me without u scaring the shit outta me but thats clearly not the point....Holler at your HYPO QUEEN.
Sam.
Still here...still working things out...i guess i'm having some problems with her and don't know how to deal with them....stuff i haven't felt before or dealt with before.
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