Im Exhausted!

I am soo exhausted. I went in to check on my girls at midnight lastnight and Autumn was awake sitting up and ready to play and have a midnight snack. She finally went back to sleep at 3:30am. Than Mackenzie slapped me in the side of the head at 5:30 'mamaaaa mamaaa'. Lol she went back to sleep at 6am and woke again at 7:30am. So practically no sleep for moi lastnight. So Im exhausted and the stress is really getting me because of that,lol, but I still love them dearly hehe, thats my lil angels. Its my birthday tomorrow, the BIG 22!!Haha! Sucks though that I gotta spend it without my husband:( But I still got my girlies to spend it with. So thats good. Wish Sean was here though. Im counting down the days until the prelim on the 17th of this month and Im hoping it all goes the way it should and that we can soon get back together and have him out of that shit hole referred to as Maplehurst!Ugh.
Well I dont really know what to type about tonight, Im exhausted and Im listening to music and tryna relax. So I'll tell ya how I feel now in hypo language ;)

Its like this...
My neck muscles are killing me and I am paranoid about that haha, my chest did some weird tightning thing a couple of times already today and I have been getting jaw and arm pain along with lightheadedness and nausea so Im freaking that Im having a heart attack as usual even though I know the odds are stacked up AGAINST that idea. As I mentioned its my birthday tomorrow and as a special present to myself I have a doctors appointment so I can go and express all of my ridiculous complaints and get yet some more peace of mind for a week atleast..(I say a week but it probably wont last much farther than the office exit door). Well thats all I got to say today ..ohh wait I forgot!i have shortness of breath too!So tonights prolly gunna be another ativan night ...my head hurts too. I know thats an aweful lot of ailments but hell what can I say in my mind thats what keeps it going I suppose. So I hope you all enjoyed my posting of the day regardless of how BoRiNg it was...*ooh the head and jaw pain and chest weirdness again* I cant wait till docs tomorrow and Im sure I'll have a post about how that went too! Take care and I'll ttyl guys.
Your hypo Queen,
Sam <3

ps: Love ya with all my heart and soul Sean, you'll be home again soon, I just know it!